Extremes

Monday morning I actually felt happy! That was really cool. And I'm seeing all sorts of (positive) changes in my attitude towards my husband. I'm finding that quite amazing.

I'm still not sleeping well and an issue came up with my psychiatrist today that not only had me in tears but had me forcing myself to not scream out, loudly, in emotional pain. I had to go back to work afterwards so it's all stayed stuffed and I don't know how I'm going to deal with this. I could use a lot of prayer on this matter. I'm thinking that we're going to have to do a lot of digging and investigating to get to the root of it and I'm not sure if I can handle the deep pain that's going to come with that. But maybe we're getting close to the root of the depression.