It's been a while
It's been a shocking five months since I've posted here and so much has happened. And if I don't make a lot of sense in what I write today, I will blame it on the left-over sedation from the medical procedure I underwent yesterday. For 24 hours after leaving the hospital, I'm not to drive or make any major decisions. Is coming back to my blog a major decision? I'll let you decide.
In the past week, I've been reinstating some posts I deleted a year and a half ago. I plan to continue to insert back-dated posts that should have been put in here but weren't. I also hope to be able to continue writing on a more regular basis.
In the past several months, my marriage has improved dramatically, and I say that despite some heated conflagrations this week. It's really been remarkable. I hope to document how that has happened.
I've also been in depression and finally began seeing a psychiatrist two or three months ago. She's really nice and takes pains to not push her agenda on me, which is important because I suspect she's not a Christian and I think she sees nothing wrong with homosexuality--something I continue to struggle with and which is probably a large cause of my depression.
I've been working full time in a term position. I'm reluctant to tell much about my job because I think that as soon as I did, it wouldn't be hard to figure out where I'm working and I don't want to get in trouble with my employer or make things difficult for them. Anything I say about work will be in the vaguest of terms.
That's another thing I've noticed since I've started blogging. Some organizations don't like being identified online. It's really surprised me because often I've mentioned an organization in a way that I thought was positive and wanted to give the organization credit, only to find out that the organization was very angry and insisted I remove my posts. This happened to me nearly two years ago and is why I've been less eager to write here. It's had me second-guessing a lot of what I write. But I want to stop being controlled by that experience and so I'm going to try to be more faithful in writing. I will be careful, however, not to name people or organizations so they can't google and find themselves in my blog--unless I am sure it is safe to do so. I find this an unfortunate thing because I've always been so careful to give credit where credit is due, but I guess it's necessary--at least for now.
There were other things I was going to write but they've escaped my foggy mind. I guess that if they're important, I'll remember later.
It's good to be back.
In the past week, I've been reinstating some posts I deleted a year and a half ago. I plan to continue to insert back-dated posts that should have been put in here but weren't. I also hope to be able to continue writing on a more regular basis.
In the past several months, my marriage has improved dramatically, and I say that despite some heated conflagrations this week. It's really been remarkable. I hope to document how that has happened.
I've also been in depression and finally began seeing a psychiatrist two or three months ago. She's really nice and takes pains to not push her agenda on me, which is important because I suspect she's not a Christian and I think she sees nothing wrong with homosexuality--something I continue to struggle with and which is probably a large cause of my depression.
I've been working full time in a term position. I'm reluctant to tell much about my job because I think that as soon as I did, it wouldn't be hard to figure out where I'm working and I don't want to get in trouble with my employer or make things difficult for them. Anything I say about work will be in the vaguest of terms.
That's another thing I've noticed since I've started blogging. Some organizations don't like being identified online. It's really surprised me because often I've mentioned an organization in a way that I thought was positive and wanted to give the organization credit, only to find out that the organization was very angry and insisted I remove my posts. This happened to me nearly two years ago and is why I've been less eager to write here. It's had me second-guessing a lot of what I write. But I want to stop being controlled by that experience and so I'm going to try to be more faithful in writing. I will be careful, however, not to name people or organizations so they can't google and find themselves in my blog--unless I am sure it is safe to do so. I find this an unfortunate thing because I've always been so careful to give credit where credit is due, but I guess it's necessary--at least for now.
There were other things I was going to write but they've escaped my foggy mind. I guess that if they're important, I'll remember later.
It's good to be back.
posted by Magdaleine at 1:55 PM
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