"That's not who I am!"

I had an insight this morning. The way my co-worker dressed today had the potential of stirring me in unwelcome ways, especially at one point when she stood in front of my desk, and yet my first thought was, how will I respond to this? I remembered what had happened at the retreat a week and a half ago and was able to keep my thoughts where they belonged.

As I thought about this and how God is changing me, the words came to me, "This isn't who I am!" It came like a thunderbolt and was quite a surprise to me. And yet it rang true. I'm no longer who I used to be or who I thought I was. To be quite bold about it (and frankly, I think it's something that must be proven through time), I am no longer a woman who is sexually and/or romantically attracted to other women. Wow! That's a scary thing to declare and yet that was the revelation I received this morning. I am a daughter of God--not a lesbian, not a woman who struggles with same-sex attraction, but a daughter of God. Wow!

My psychiatrist asked me today how I've been doing the last week in that department and I could honestly say that I have not been troubled in the ways I was before the retreat. She was amazed. I am too. God's given me a whole new perspective of myself!